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[<i>waves crashing against a shore</i>]

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[Denali] I overheard someone talking 
about their problems the other day.

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"I had the worst day ever", they said.

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"First, there was nowhere to park 
at Whole Foods,

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and everyone was acting all aggro,

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so I had to walk like two blocks in the rain,
and my shoes got soaked.

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Then my stupid salad was like $12.

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Then I was in such a rush to get to yoga,

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I forgot my mat

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and I had to use some nasty loaner mat

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and it smelled like balls."

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[Denali] I don't know what the big deal is, 
I love the way balls smell.

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I'm pretty sure Ben knows I'm dying.

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I'm not sure if it's the cancer 
or something else,

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but he's been taking me

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to all the places we used to go to,

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and checking on me a lot.

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The other day he asked me to let him know

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when I was ready to go.

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He said he didn't want me to suffer.

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[<i>waves crashing</i>]

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Growing up with Ben was pretty great.

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He made pictures for a living,

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and didn't feel as comfortable in the city,

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so we traveled around a lot.

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He's what his hippie friends call

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a "free spirit" or something.

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We camped a lot.

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I'd pretend I was a giant stinky butterfly.

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I'd help Ben find girlfriends.

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We'd go shark fishing.

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We'd do yoga.

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I'd give him kisses.

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We'd hang out with famous people.

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We even went sailing in the desert once.

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Which brings me to a time in my life

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that I've always been 
a little self-conscious about.

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Of course it's not my fault,

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but I became SO HANDSOME

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that it was impossible to ignore.

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When Ben started to notice,

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I had to start working for a living.

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Humiliating outfits became pretty standard.

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If you've ever been told to look cute,

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you know it's not as easy as it sounds.

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And you can't just fake 
special kisses in the studio.

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It won't look authentic.

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Oh man, those were the good old days for sure.

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I think most people would've 
left their old dog at home,

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but Ben insisted on taking me 
to all our favourite spots one more time.

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I think he feels like he can't 
leave my side right now.

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This one time, about ten years ago,

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we were camping at Joshua Tree,

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and Ben stood up by the campfire
and just passed out.

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And he started bleeding.

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Things changed a lot after that.

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When I licked him, I could taste the chemicals

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they were putting in him to kill the cancer;

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but it just seemed like 
they were killing him too.

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[<i>muffled deep waves crashing under water</i>]

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If anyone had tried to take me 
out of that hospital room,

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I would've bitten their face.

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I remember feeling really sad for Ben

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when he found out he'd have to poop into 
a plastic bag attached to his stomach

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for the rest of his life.

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Mainly because he already had 
to put all of my poop into plastic bags.

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The worst though was when this letter 
came from the insurance company.

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["...we are rescinding your coverage 
and denying the claim."]

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One time I had the best dream ever.

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I dreamed I had rabies

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and snuck into the insurance company

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to share my rabies 
with as many people as I could

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before they shot me with a tranquilizer gun.

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I don't know what 
I would have done without Ben.

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I'm so glad his cancer went away.

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I'd be so scared right now

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if I was going through this without him.

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I've been trying to be really strong 
for him this week.

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Just like he was when things 
were going really bad.

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My last night was really peaceful.

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I wasn't hungry anymore,

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so I let Ben know it was time.

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And he let me sleep on his chest all night.

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Ben said a raven swooped by

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while he carried me 
to the vet's car in the morning.

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I'm sure his hippie friends 
had lots to say about that.

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There was this really smart scientist guy

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who thought that people 
could learn a lot from dogs.

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He said that when someone you love

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walks through the door,

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even if it happens five times a day,

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you should go totally insane with joy.

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[<i>sweeping melodic electronic music 
with high vocals</i>]