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I already got out of prison for ten years
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but I really don't know who he was
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Tell you the truth I don't even think like him
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I look back and think of the guy
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of who I was some poor pathetic guy
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Wasn't even tough or crazy,
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it was just some pathetic guy
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and I made a lot of decisions based on fear
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You know, a whole life based on fear
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and smoking screens
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and like the poor dark time of my life, y'know
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I wasn't taking care of myself spiritually at the time
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I couldn't
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I don't think I was willing to
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I don't know if I was able to
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I needed to go through
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and he was there the whole way through me, man
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From beginning till the end
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and completely unjudgemental
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He was lying next to me like it was another day
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And he knew I was hurting
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He was just lying next to Chavy
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and you know Chavy, crazy Chavy was on the couch
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and Vino was on my couch kicking dope
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We're also poor sick and hungry and weird
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we're really weird people
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He just didn't know they're weird
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All my friends got stories about that dog
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My buddies when they come stay at my pad
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they're having a hard time
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my fuckin' dog will get right next to them
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He would just get right next to them
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and he wouldn't leave
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he was just so loyal
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he was just so down for the guys I loved
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and that dog knew it
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He showed me through his example
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how to love and I loved him
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I don't think I showed him how to love
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I think he showed me how to love
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Yes, I need to go right now
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He's in a lot of pain, I can tell
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I can't keep... y'know, like...
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For my own comfort, y'know
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Yea, we're doing a documentary on him right now
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We're finishing off the five hours
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What can we do about him?
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I talked to Cynthia this morning, and she was like
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"We're doing the right thing."
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Thank God I have people that know what's going on
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He was so ragged, and he was... sobbing
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Oden stayed with Cynthia
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because I moved to a different place
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And they wouldn't let dogs in
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And it was five flights up
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My place had five flights of stairs
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And I was thinking like,
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"We can't take him"
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I knew he was going to die two months ago
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I knew it
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And it was my own childish fears like
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"I'm gonna miss you, don't go..."
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Y'know?
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"Don't go"
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Y'know?
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It may sound crazy, but I'm like...
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some universal job,
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like God gave him some job to do here
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and take care of people y'know
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He wasn't blocked
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by what clothes he was wearing,
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what car he had,
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or what crew he was hanging with
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or what friends, and who's popular
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what make him look good,
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he was just about helping, man
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It was like,
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"hey, you're sick in my couch. You're my friend."
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Y'know what I mean?
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Wanna say goodbye to Oden?
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Oh yes
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smooch
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You tell me how it is
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Go say hi to Jesus
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Tell'im we're comin'
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We're comin' soon, ok?
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You tell Jesus we love Him
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And you hang out with people high on Him
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He'll give you a new leg, prospector...
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He'll give you a brand new leg
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And it'll be all good
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I wanna be the man
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y'know, I wanna be like, "I just put this dog down"
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and John Wayne,
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but it's not me
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y'know, I'm not that tough
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I really am a soft dude
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I really am a sensitive dude
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and the more I fucked up,
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the more sensitive I get man
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And thank God
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Their whole job is to serve I think
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And I told him like,
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"His job is done"
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Your job is done here, champ... Ok?
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You know, his job was done
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And there's now way in denying that
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It was my was my own childish fears
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"You cannot leave me, because I'm gonna miss you"
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You know, he was just like,
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"I'm going, champ. I gotta go sometime"
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What?
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He's gone.
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He's gone.
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He knew it.
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He knew it.
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He know he was going
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His time is up
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I love you baby
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You be a good boy there
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That dog was in bend
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And that dog needed to go
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He don't wanna be here no more
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I've tried to stay open for people, y'know
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I'm trying to let people know, the truth..
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about how I feel
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y'know, and um...
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God is love
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And love is God
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y'know, and um...
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God was that dog I held
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y'know?
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Y'know, he just showed me unconditional love
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He did
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And by that, I think
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I love people a lot more.