1 00:00:05,504 --> 00:00:07,078 I already got out of prison for ten years 2 00:00:07,078 --> 00:00:09,102 but I really don't know who he was 3 00:00:09,102 --> 00:00:11,595 Tell you the truth I don't even think like him 4 00:00:11,595 --> 00:00:13,931 I look back and think of the guy 5 00:00:13,931 --> 00:00:17,050 of who I was some poor pathetic guy 6 00:00:17,050 --> 00:00:18,813 Wasn't even tough or crazy, 7 00:00:18,813 --> 00:00:20,204 it was just some pathetic guy 8 00:00:20,204 --> 00:00:22,898 and I made a lot of decisions based on fear 9 00:00:22,898 --> 00:00:25,310 You know, a whole life based on fear 10 00:00:25,310 --> 00:00:26,691 and smoking screens 11 00:00:26,691 --> 00:00:30,302 and like the poor dark time of my life, y'know 12 00:00:30,302 --> 00:00:32,943 I wasn't taking care of myself spiritually at the time 13 00:00:32,943 --> 00:00:33,802 I couldn't 14 00:00:33,802 --> 00:00:35,620 I don't think I was willing to 15 00:00:35,620 --> 00:00:37,186 I don't know if I was able to 16 00:00:37,186 --> 00:00:38,731 I needed to go through 17 00:00:38,731 --> 00:00:40,986 and he was there the whole way through me, man 18 00:00:41,001 --> 00:00:42,532 From beginning till the end 19 00:00:42,532 --> 00:00:43,864 and completely unjudgemental 20 00:00:43,864 --> 00:00:46,070 He was lying next to me like it was another day 21 00:00:46,070 --> 00:00:48,616 And he knew I was hurting 22 00:00:48,616 --> 00:00:50,666 He was just lying next to Chavy 23 00:00:50,666 --> 00:00:52,719 and you know Chavy, crazy Chavy was on the couch 24 00:00:52,719 --> 00:00:55,514 and Vino was on my couch kicking dope 25 00:00:55,514 --> 00:00:57,585 We're also poor sick and hungry and weird 26 00:00:57,585 --> 00:00:59,185 we're really weird people 27 00:00:59,185 --> 00:01:01,899 He just didn't know they're weird 28 00:01:14,469 --> 00:01:17,607 All my friends got stories about that dog 29 00:01:22,314 --> 00:01:23,863 My buddies when they come stay at my pad 30 00:01:23,863 --> 00:01:25,101 they're having a hard time 31 00:01:25,101 --> 00:01:28,630 my fuckin' dog will get right next to them 32 00:01:28,630 --> 00:01:30,090 He would just get right next to them 33 00:01:30,090 --> 00:01:31,008 and he wouldn't leave 34 00:01:31,008 --> 00:01:32,787 he was just so loyal 35 00:01:32,787 --> 00:01:34,787 he was just so down for the guys I loved 36 00:01:34,787 --> 00:01:36,475 and that dog knew it 37 00:01:40,367 --> 00:01:42,655 He showed me through his example 38 00:01:42,655 --> 00:01:44,488 how to love and I loved him 39 00:01:44,488 --> 00:01:45,999 I don't think I showed him how to love 40 00:01:45,999 --> 00:01:47,510 I think he showed me how to love 41 00:01:47,510 --> 00:01:49,060 Yes, I need to go right now 42 00:01:49,060 --> 00:01:51,069 He's in a lot of pain, I can tell 43 00:01:51,069 --> 00:01:53,905 I can't keep... y'know, like... 44 00:01:53,905 --> 00:01:56,262 For my own comfort, y'know 45 00:01:56,262 --> 00:01:58,618 Yea, we're doing a documentary on him right now 46 00:01:58,618 --> 00:02:00,303 We're finishing off the five hours 47 00:02:00,303 --> 00:02:02,370 What can we do about him? 48 00:02:02,370 --> 00:02:03,803 I talked to Cynthia this morning, and she was like 49 00:02:03,803 --> 00:02:04,940 "We're doing the right thing." 50 00:02:04,940 --> 00:02:07,355 Thank God I have people that know what's going on 51 00:02:07,355 --> 00:02:10,726 He was so ragged, and he was... sobbing 52 00:02:11,994 --> 00:02:13,265 Oden stayed with Cynthia 53 00:02:13,265 --> 00:02:15,243 because I moved to a different place 54 00:02:15,243 --> 00:02:16,395 And they wouldn't let dogs in 55 00:02:16,395 --> 00:02:18,484 And it was five flights up 56 00:02:18,484 --> 00:02:20,432 My place had five flights of stairs 57 00:02:20,432 --> 00:02:21,600 And I was thinking like, 58 00:02:21,600 --> 00:02:22,663 "We can't take him" 59 00:02:22,663 --> 00:02:24,805 I knew he was going to die two months ago 60 00:02:24,805 --> 00:02:25,885 I knew it 61 00:02:25,885 --> 00:02:29,024 And it was my own childish fears like 62 00:02:29,024 --> 00:02:30,108 "I'm gonna miss you, don't go..." 63 00:02:30,108 --> 00:02:31,742 Y'know? 64 00:02:31,742 --> 00:02:32,619 "Don't go" 65 00:02:32,619 --> 00:02:33,404 Y'know? 66 00:02:37,743 --> 00:02:40,863 It may sound crazy, but I'm like... 67 00:02:40,863 --> 00:02:42,621 some universal job, 68 00:02:42,621 --> 00:02:44,345 like God gave him some job to do here 69 00:02:44,345 --> 00:02:46,725 and take care of people y'know 70 00:02:50,802 --> 00:02:52,309 He wasn't blocked 71 00:02:52,309 --> 00:02:53,447 by what clothes he was wearing, 72 00:02:53,447 --> 00:02:54,515 what car he had, 73 00:02:54,515 --> 00:02:55,824 or what crew he was hanging with 74 00:02:55,824 --> 00:02:58,608 or what friends, and who's popular 75 00:02:58,608 --> 00:03:00,057 what make him look good, 76 00:03:00,057 --> 00:03:01,255 he was just about helping, man 77 00:03:01,255 --> 00:03:02,133 It was like, 78 00:03:02,133 --> 00:03:04,159 "hey, you're sick in my couch. You're my friend." 79 00:03:04,159 --> 00:03:05,279 Y'know what I mean? 80 00:03:05,279 --> 00:03:06,314 Wanna say goodbye to Oden? 81 00:03:06,314 --> 00:03:06,839 Oh yes 82 00:03:06,839 --> 00:03:07,401 smooch 83 00:03:08,278 --> 00:03:09,613 You tell me how it is 84 00:03:09,613 --> 00:03:10,790 Go say hi to Jesus 85 00:03:10,790 --> 00:03:11,728 Tell'im we're comin' 86 00:03:11,728 --> 00:03:13,501 We're comin' soon, ok? 87 00:03:13,548 --> 00:03:16,565 You tell Jesus we love Him 88 00:03:16,565 --> 00:03:18,115 And you hang out with people high on Him 89 00:03:18,115 --> 00:03:20,242 He'll give you a new leg, prospector... 90 00:03:20,242 --> 00:03:21,975 He'll give you a brand new leg 91 00:03:21,975 --> 00:03:24,385 And it'll be all good 92 00:03:25,908 --> 00:03:27,158 I wanna be the man 93 00:03:27,158 --> 00:03:28,608 y'know, I wanna be like, "I just put this dog down" 94 00:03:28,608 --> 00:03:30,085 and John Wayne, 95 00:03:30,085 --> 00:03:31,553 but it's not me 96 00:03:31,553 --> 00:03:33,412 y'know, I'm not that tough 97 00:03:33,412 --> 00:03:35,536 I really am a soft dude 98 00:03:35,536 --> 00:03:37,059 I really am a sensitive dude 99 00:03:37,059 --> 00:03:38,309 and the more I fucked up, 100 00:03:38,309 --> 00:03:39,636 the more sensitive I get man 101 00:03:39,636 --> 00:03:41,401 And thank God 102 00:03:44,955 --> 00:03:47,364 Their whole job is to serve I think 103 00:03:47,364 --> 00:03:49,005 And I told him like, 104 00:03:49,005 --> 00:03:52,091 "His job is done" 105 00:03:52,091 --> 00:03:54,377 Your job is done here, champ... Ok? 106 00:03:54,377 --> 00:03:55,522 You know, his job was done 107 00:03:55,522 --> 00:03:58,958 And there's now way in denying that 108 00:04:04,958 --> 00:04:07,646 It was my was my own childish fears 109 00:04:07,646 --> 00:04:09,249 "You cannot leave me, because I'm gonna miss you" 110 00:04:09,249 --> 00:04:11,371 You know, he was just like, 111 00:04:11,371 --> 00:04:14,769 "I'm going, champ. I gotta go sometime" 112 00:04:16,784 --> 00:04:17,426 What? 113 00:04:17,534 --> 00:04:18,602 He's gone. 114 00:04:18,894 --> 00:04:20,709 He's gone. 115 00:04:20,771 --> 00:04:21,628 He knew it. 116 00:04:21,843 --> 00:04:22,615 He knew it. 117 00:04:22,723 --> 00:04:23,895 He know he was going 118 00:04:23,895 --> 00:04:25,613 His time is up 119 00:04:35,807 --> 00:04:37,861 I love you baby 120 00:04:37,861 --> 00:04:40,429 You be a good boy there 121 00:04:40,429 --> 00:04:41,779 That dog was in bend 122 00:04:41,779 --> 00:04:43,772 And that dog needed to go 123 00:04:43,772 --> 00:04:45,888 He don't wanna be here no more 124 00:05:15,273 --> 00:05:17,836 I've tried to stay open for people, y'know 125 00:05:17,836 --> 00:05:24,126 I'm trying to let people know, the truth.. 126 00:05:24,126 --> 00:05:26,274 about how I feel 127 00:05:26,274 --> 00:05:27,456 y'know, and um... 128 00:05:27,456 --> 00:05:28,946 God is love 129 00:05:28,946 --> 00:05:30,616 And love is God 130 00:05:30,616 --> 00:05:32,626 y'know, and um... 131 00:05:35,888 --> 00:05:39,050 God was that dog I held 132 00:05:39,604 --> 00:05:41,992 y'know? 133 00:05:46,777 --> 00:05:49,512 Y'know, he just showed me unconditional love 134 00:05:49,512 --> 00:05:50,530 He did 135 00:05:50,530 --> 00:05:51,678 And by that, I think 136 00:05:51,678 --> 00:05:54,234 I love people a lot more.