I already got out of prison for ten years but I really don't know who he was Tell you the truth I don't even think like him I look back and think of the guy of who I was some poor pathetic guy Wasn't even tough or crazy, it was just some pathetic guy and I made a lot of decisions based on fear You know, a whole life based on fear and smoking screens and like the poor dark time of my life, y'know I wasn't taking care of myself spiritually at the time I couldn't I don't think I was willing to I don't know if I was able to I needed to go through and he was there the whole way through me, man From beginning till the end and completely unjudgemental He was lying next to me like it was another day And he knew I was hurting He was just lying next to Chavy and you know Chavy, crazy Chavy was on the couch and Vino was on my couch kicking dope We're also poor sick and hungry and weird we're really weird people He just didn't know they're weird All my friends got stories about that dog My buddies when they come stay at my pad they're having a hard time my fuckin' dog will get right next to them He would just get right next to them and he wouldn't leave he was just so loyal he was just so down for the guys I loved and that dog knew it He showed me through his example how to love and I loved him I don't think I showed him how to love I think he showed me how to love Yes, I need to go right now He's in a lot of pain, I can tell I can't keep... y'know, like... For my own comfort, y'know Yea, we're doing a documentary on him right now We're finishing off the five hours What can we do about him? I talked to Cynthia this morning, and she was like "We're doing the right thing." Thank God I have people that know what's going on He was so ragged, and he was... sobbing Oden stayed with Cynthia because I moved to a different place And they wouldn't let dogs in And it was five flights up My place had five flights of stairs And I was thinking like, "We can't take him" I knew he was going to die two months ago I knew it And it was my own childish fears like "I'm gonna miss you, don't go..." Y'know? "Don't go" Y'know? It may sound crazy, but I'm like... some universal job, like God gave him some job to do here and take care of people y'know He wasn't blocked by what clothes he was wearing, what car he had, or what crew he was hanging with or what friends, and who's popular what make him look good, he was just about helping, man It was like, "hey, you're sick in my couch. You're my friend." Y'know what I mean? Wanna say goodbye to Oden? Oh yes smooch You tell me how it is Go say hi to Jesus Tell'im we're comin' We're comin' soon, ok? You tell Jesus we love Him And you hang out with people high on Him He'll give you a new leg, prospector... He'll give you a brand new leg And it'll be all good I wanna be the man y'know, I wanna be like, "I just put this dog down" and John Wayne, but it's not me y'know, I'm not that tough I really am a soft dude I really am a sensitive dude and the more I fucked up, the more sensitive I get man And thank God Their whole job is to serve I think And I told him like, "His job is done" Your job is done here, champ... Ok? You know, his job was done And there's now way in denying that It was my was my own childish fears "You cannot leave me, because I'm gonna miss you" You know, he was just like, "I'm going, champ. I gotta go sometime" What? He's gone. He's gone. He knew it. He knew it. He know he was going His time is up I love you baby You be a good boy there That dog was in bend And that dog needed to go He don't wanna be here no more I've tried to stay open for people, y'know I'm trying to let people know, the truth.. about how I feel y'know, and um... God is love And love is God y'know, and um... God was that dog I held y'know? Y'know, he just showed me unconditional love He did And by that, I think I love people a lot more.