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I already got out of prison for ten years

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but I really don't know who he was

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Tell you the truth I don't even think like him

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I look back and think of the guy

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of who I was some poor pathetic guy

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Wasn't even tough or crazy,

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it was just some pathetic guy

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and I made a lot of decisions based on fear

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You know, a whole life based on fear

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and smoking screens

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and like the poor dark time of my life, y'know

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I wasn't taking care of myself spiritually at the time

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I couldn't

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I don't think I was willing to

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I don't know if I was able to

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I needed to go through

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and he was there the whole way through me, man

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From beginning till the end

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and completely unjudgemental

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He was lying next to me like it was another day

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And he knew I was hurting

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He was just lying next to Chavy

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and you know Chavy, crazy Chavy was on the couch

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and Vino was on my couch kicking dope

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We're also poor sick and hungry and weird

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we're really weird people

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He just didn't know they're weird

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All my friends got stories about that dog

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My buddies when they come stay at my pad

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they're having a hard time

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my fuckin' dog will get right next to them

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He would just get right next to them

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and he wouldn't leave

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he was just <i>so</i> loyal

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he was just so down for the guys I loved

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and that dog knew it

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He showed me through his example

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how to love and I loved him

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I don't think I showed him how to love

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I think he showed me how to love

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Yes, I need to go right now

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He's in a lot of pain, I can tell

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I can't keep... y'know, like...

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For my own comfort, y'know

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Yea, we're doing a documentary on him right now

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We're finishing off the five hours

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What can we do about him?

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I talked to Cynthia this morning, and she was like

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"We're doing the right thing."

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Thank God I have people that know what's going on

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He was so ragged, and he was... <i>sobbing</i>

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Oden stayed with Cynthia

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because I moved to a different place

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And they wouldn't let dogs in

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And it was five flights up

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My place had five flights of stairs

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And I was thinking like,

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"We can't take him"

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I knew he was going to die two months ago

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I knew it

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And it was my own childish fears like

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"I'm gonna miss you, don't go..."

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Y'know?

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"Don't go"

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Y'know?

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It may sound crazy, but I'm like...

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some universal job,

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like God gave him some job to do here

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and take care of people y'know

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He wasn't blocked

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by what clothes he was wearing,

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what car he had,

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or what crew he was hanging with

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or what friends, and who's popular

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what make him look good,

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he was just about helping, man

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It was like,

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"hey, you're sick in my couch. You're my friend."

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Y'know what I mean?

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Wanna say goodbye to Oden?

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Oh yes

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<i>smooch</i>

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You tell me how it is

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Go say hi to Jesus

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Tell'im we're comin'

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We're comin' soon, ok?

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You tell Jesus we love Him

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And you hang out with people high on Him

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He'll give you a new leg, prospector...

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He'll give you a brand new leg

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And it'll be all good

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I wanna be the man

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y'know, I wanna be like, "I just put this dog down"

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and John Wayne,

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but it's not me

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y'know, I'm not that tough

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I really am a soft dude

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I really am a sensitive dude

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and the more I fucked up,

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the more sensitive I get man

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And thank God

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Their whole job is to serve I think

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And I told him like,

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"His job is done"

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Your job is done here, champ... Ok?

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You know, his job was done

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And there's now way in denying that

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It was my was my own childish fears

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"You cannot leave me, because I'm gonna miss you"

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You know, he was just like,

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"I'm going, champ. I gotta go sometime"

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What?

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He's gone.

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He's gone.

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He knew it.

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He knew it.

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He know he was going

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His time is up

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I love you baby

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You be a good boy there

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That dog was in bend

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And that dog needed to go

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He don't wanna be here no more

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I've tried to stay open for people, y'know

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I'm trying to let people know, the truth..

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about how I feel

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y'know, and um...

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God is love

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And love is God

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y'know, and um...

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God was that dog I held

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y'know?

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Y'know, he just showed me unconditional love

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He did

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And by that, I think

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I love people a lot more.